How sad is it to wake up to a new day in a world that doesn't have you and me in it together. we have grown to learn new things, like learning how to pass every day without talking to each other, in silence. Proof that not everything newly learnt is a thing to cherish. Every waking day, passing hour, fading breath is an existence that nurtures pain in a way never before. I have learnt new things like being happy in the outside, trick myself into believing that I can exist without your love. I have learnt new things like not texting you the first and last thing. I have learnt new things like being engrossed in deep work so that I can mute away from the maddening noises inside my mind that are never stopping. I have learnt new things liken dismissing the urge to express pain that is deep inside.
I am determined, I am more. I am not going to stop.
I will learn new things everyday and in a futile attempt believe numbly that its easy to live in a world that doesn't have you and me anymore in it.
It’s beautiful to see everything falling apart.